us and them

you opened up your lips
formed a pretty curve with your mouth
and the shape became a sound
he wasn’t expecting
but don’t blame him
how could he know
that you would say no
that’s just ridiculous
you cannot say no to him
this much you owe to him
there’re things
a man needs
and if you’ve both shared a kiss
and more
why would you say no
you’re eternally his
who cares if it was a one-time thing
if you were drunk
and have come clean
that doesn’t mean anything
at least not to him
so who cares about that sound from your lips
who cares if it’s turned into begging
there’re things 
a man needs
and you are one

you found him in a bar
and he’s mad
but it’s fine
he’s fine
he just gets like that
when he’s a bit drunk
but seriously
he’s a nice guy
he is a nice guy
and someone’s yelling at him
pushing him out
but it’s really just fine
everybody is having fun
let’s not ruin that
everybody is having fun
right

i opened up my eyes
welcomed my buzzing head
after a long hazy night
i’m lying on his chest
and heavy breaths surround me
but i can’t stop thinking
about this friend of mine
who almost got punched yesterday
it’s just too strange to grasp
how rejection can scar so much
someone would go that far to demonstrate
he’s a man
and there’re things he just needs
but kindness isn’t one of them
while i dress myself
while i walk home
while i write
there’s this knot in my stomach
i can’t untie
you see
it’s not the first time
i’ve faced a man 
who couldn’t take no for an answer
and i didn’t blame him
how could he know
that i would say no
that’s just ridiculous
i couldn’t say no to him
that much i owed to him
he was my boyfriend
there were things he used to need
and i was one of them